It's coming.

Holiday is coming to the end. And this is enough for me. Feel like going back to life with assignments and works. At least the time will pass so much faster. And easier. I'm ready for it, but I'm not ready yet.
Facing some problems and conflicts. I still can't decide what subjects to choose.
There's something. I'll not face it if I have a choice. But no way. I can't stay away from it. It's just a timing problem. Whether I'll face it sooner or later. I still have no decision yet.

I have no confidence to do it well really. But this is not solving the problem but making it worst.


Haih haih haih.



Can I ? Can I? Can I?

Graph

This is all about a graph. Whether it is increasing or decreasing. In fact, we shouldn't let the graph to increase. Because it belongs to a decreasing graph. Y should decrease linearly against time. This is what a correct graph looks like.

No idea.

Sometime we just need to stay out from the crowd.

I believe that everyone has words that couldn't be told.
Because we have to protect. Ourselves or someone we care.

Thisisforthebirthdaygirl. ♥

First of all, I would like to wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! 生日快樂 ! Selamat hari jadi ! ♥ ♥ ♥

I'm sorry that I couldn't celebrate with you on your big day :'( but my ♥ will always be with you :)
We have been gone through soooooo much and you're still here with me :) I'm so glad to know you 11years back.
I wouldn't say much here and hope you will receive my present soon :D


I love youu ! ♥.♥

:) ♥

Zoooooooo ♥

Forget about the chemistry final exam this morning, I had a great day in zoo Negara ! :p I think I had been there before when I was just a little girl but I have no memory of it. So let this be the first time ! :D

This is the map. It's huge.

The fishes are so so so big !

This is my favorite. PENGUIN ♥.♥

Crocodile ! X.X

There are a lot of animalssssssss and these are just some of them :p I have spent two and a half hour walking in the zoo and this is so tiring !

Holiday starts now but I have no plan for this 3weeks. Hmmmmm :/

短暂的幸福

I don't know why these words just pop up in my mind :X



单方面说好要走的路
现在只剩下我与孤独
其实早已看清楚 你眼底下的无助
只是我不肯认输
宁愿活在自己幻想的国度
因为事实实在太残酷
你从来没有明确地说出
未来的路你不会离开我半步
假如 一切只是假如
心碎的痛怎么那么清楚
终于到了结束 我为了你而哭
你却没放慢脚步
叫我去追求我该拥有的幸福
我站在原地 有点麻木
好多话还来不及倾诉

你给了我短暂的幸福
却留下漫长的痛苦


By Shell :) ♥

Survey?

Starting time: 0815pm

Name: Michelle Young

Brother(s): 1

Sister (s): 1

Eye Color: Dark brown (?)

Shoe size: 7.

Hair: brunette + black 

Piercings: two!

Height: 170cm

What are you wearing right now?: YELLOW t-shirt and short pant

Where do you live?: Puchong.

Favorite number:  3

Favorite drink:  MILO ♥

Favorite month: march

Favorite breakfast: Bread, sausage, ham, beans,egg... YUMMY ! ♥

-Have You Ever-

Broken a bone: No no.

Been in a police car: No lahh

Fallen for a friend: hmm yeap !

Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time: err errr...

Swam in the ocean: YES !

Fallen asleep in school: once? twice?

Broken someone’s heart?:  Sigh :(

Cried when someone died?:  of course.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:  Yeaaa.

Saved e-mails: GOT !

Been cheated on: always -_-

-What-

Your room is like?:  Quite tidy dee :s

What is right beside you?: My luggage -_-

What is the last thing you ate?: Bah kut teh ! ♥

-Ever Had-

Chicken pox: yes yes.

Sore throat:  aiyo of course lah~

Stitches: EEE noo ><

Broken nose: NOOO

-Do You-

Believe in love at first sight?: Not really.

Like picnic?: AHHHH LIKE ! ♥

-Who-

Did you last yell at? : kezvin (?) :X

Who was the last person you danced with?: Err too long to remember.

Who last made you smile?: Kezvin ♥

-Final Questions-

What are you listening to right now?: Listen to my heartbeat :p

Do today?:  Travel from kuantan to kl.

schooling? : Nope.

Diamond or pearl?:  Diamond :D ♥

Are you the oldest?: No no.

Indoors or outdoors?: Hmmm depends.

-Today did you-

Talk to someone you like?:  Yuppp.. :)

Kiss anyone?: YES ♥

Sing?: SING OUT LOUD in the car -_-

Talk to an ex?: Nope.

Miss someone?: Yes choppa i miss you :(

Ate ? :  Err rice lah bah kut teh lah, biscuit lah...~

-Last person who-

You talked to on the phone?: Joyjoy.

Made you cry?: hmmmmmmmmmmm :/

Went to the movies with?: Kezvin.

You went to the mall with?: Kezvin.

Who cheered you up?: You ♥

-Have you-

Been to Mexico?: Nope :/

Been to China?:  Nope :/

-Random-

Have a crush on someone?: I think so.

What books are you reading right now?: not reading any book now.

Best feeling in the world?: Can buy anything i want.

Future kids names?: Belle? Lol

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?:  YES !

What’s under your bed?: Err dust (?)

Favorite sport(s): Shopping ♥

Favorite place?: Beach ♥

Who do you really hate?: When i need someone but there's no one.

What time is it now?: 0833pm

18 minutes to complete this -_-

Life

Life in kuantan is fun yet boring. No more gang around. Everyone has left. How sad :( I miss the moment we gathered. Secondary school life is really awesome. ♥
Different story in college. Everyone seems so individualistic. Maybe I'm not that friendly to make friends around. It's okay to stay by myself. I feel better.

Life isn't as easy as ABC. That's why we are here to deal with it. We are always offended by the obstacles and problems that avoid us to reach our goals. Why everything couldn't just go smooth?! Why there are so many hindrance that make us feel sick?
Because this is life. Yea that's it.

Everything is already arranged. God had made an arrangement for whom you should meet, or shouldn't. This is called fate. Fate wants us to be here, to meet each other. To be friends, couples, family, or even enemies. It is kinda complicated.






Hmmmmmmmmmm. Never.

Emotional

What are you going to do, or what's your feeling when your doctor told you that you've only three months left. No one will know the feeling until they really experience it. Life is too fragile. So please appreciate everything everyone around you right now before it's too late.
This theory is way too simple to understand it but who will actually take an action on it?

Shouldn't bother too much on things that don't really matter now although it used to carry weight in your life. USED TO.







Too emotional. Nights.
Missyou.

Stopwatch

How good if we could freeze the time just by using a stopwatch at any time any where any moment we want. Doraemon has a tool like this and how I wish I can have one too :(

Many things would change by time. People changed and they'll never return. Everything around seemed so impermanent. Just like everything can just turn the other way round in a blink of eye.

In fact, time flies. Second by second. Silently. Without our notice. And when we realize something, it usually had gone far away. Usually.

Once we've decided to look forward, make sure that you'll never look back anymore. Without any regrets.








I want the time to stop so that our love will last.

Heandsheandyouandme

A new born couple just like a new born baby. Starting with pure love, growing with understanding.
When I see through her eyes, sparkling with love and joy, it reminds me of us. The first day we met. The first time we kissed. I'm so glad that you're still here with me.

To fall in love is simple. But to keep the love glowing through years is the tough part. Trust yourself, and trust your partner that you're going to make it works. Prove to everyone that look down on you. Whatever things that gonna happen, just have faith in yourself.

Love is not finding someone you can live with. It's finding someone you can't live without. I've found someone that I can't live without. And I hope you too.
Just wanna tell you that, I'll always be there whenever you need me.



Enjoy life, enjoy love :) ♥

Saturday.

Saturday saturday.
Another week ends. Day by day. Sigh.
I don't know why i don't have the motive and passion to do my work these days. The goal and aim had faded. What's the purpose to face the book and slides all the time. IDK.
Luckily this is the short semester. 3 weeks to go and it's going to end.

I feel like i'm walking like a tortoise. Couldn't catch a step. They run so quickly and i just manage to see their back. So far away. No one will wait.

I hope you were here. Lend me your shoulder.










天青色等烟雨
而我在等你
imissyou.

Problems.

There are a lot of problems and difficulties in life. But if it is not difficult, it will not be a problem. We are born to face the world. The reality. And to cope with those stuffs that have made you suffered like hell. But this is it, a part of life.

I feel so lost when I saw people around me, needed help. And I couldn't give any. I saw their problems and I really wish I could help. But no way. We couldn't save a man who doesn't want to save himself. I've tried.

All I could think about is: What's my stand and what can I provide. But there's a limit. Always.

Ahhh what can I do to make them feel better?






I really wish I can.

The 92 truths.

WHAT WAS YOUR :

1. Last Beverage =  Green tea 

2. Last Phone Call = Mummy

3. Last Text Message = Zvin

4. Last Song you listened to = Jar of hearts

5. Last Time you cried = too long to remember

HAVE YOU EVER :

6. Dated someone Twice = Yeap

7. Been Cheated on = Always -_-

8. Kissed someone & regretted it = yeap

9. Lost someone special = i got him back.

10. Been Depressed = now? nope.

11. Been Drunk and Threw up = No !

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS :

12. Purple

13. white and black

14. depends.

HAVE YOU :

15. Made a New Friend = A lot of hi-bye friends

16. Fallen out of love = Nope

17. Laughed until you cried = Always :D

18. Met Someone who Changed you =  He changed me :)

19. Found out who your true friends were =  Yea glad to have them :)

20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yea. and i dont care bout it. 

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = yes !

GENERAL :

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life =  1/5 -_-

23. Do you love all your friends = the true friends <3

 24. Do you have any pets = Choppa !

25. Do you want to change your name = My name is unique.

26. What did you do for your last birthday = Memorable birthday with lots of blessings and wishes <3

27. What time did you wake up today? = 11 am

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Chatting with Mel pong and sis 

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for. = the day i get married 

30. Last time you saw your Father = 10 minutes before.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = change my weight :(

32. What are you listening to right now = sound of chewing pizza by Mel pong. 

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = The tom from Iphone :s

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = HOMEWORK! 

37. Nickname = shell, yu hui yang, ah yao, mai hiao, ect.

38. Relationship Status = In a relationship <3

39. Zodiac sign = Aries

40. He or She = SHE,

41. Elementary School = SJK(c) Kuang hwa

42. High School =  SMK TP & SMK SAB

43. College = INTI SUbang

44. Hair colour = Brunette

45. Long or short hair = semi-long

46. Height = 170cm

47. Do you have a crush on someone? = yes ! <3  

48. What do you like about yourself? = Everything.

49. Piercings = yeap 

50. Tattoos = NONONONONONONONOO

51. Right or lefty= Righty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery =  Nope

53. First piercing = standard 5 

54. First best friend = DINGDJ

55. First sport you joined = basketball 

56. First vacation = Dont know

58. First pair of sneakers = NIKE  

RIGHT NOW :

59. Eating = nothing

60. Drinking = nothing

61. I'm about to = do my homework

62. Listening to = sound pollution

63. Waiting for = Mood to do homework

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = Yes. 

65. Get Married? = of course

66. Career ? = Wife + Mom

WHICH IS BETTER IN A GUY/GIRL :

67. Lips or eyes = both

68. Hugs or kisses= both

69. Shorter or taller = tall

70. Older or Younger = older

71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romarntic

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = both

73. Sensitive or loud = sensitive

74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = Never 

77. Drank hard liquor = nope

78. Lost glasses/contacts = ALWAYs.

79. Sex on first date = No

80. Broke someone's heart = I think so

82. Been arrested = No

83. Turned someone down = Yes

85. Fallen for a friend = Yes

86. Found yourself talking in your sleep = Used to be

DO YOU BELIEVE IN :

87. Miracles = Not really.

88. Love at first sight = nono.

89. Heaven = nope

90. Santa Claus =OMG -.-

91. Kiss on the first date = Nope

92. Angels =NOOOOOOOOOOO









Finally .

Family day.

I've spent a great day with my family. The big one.

It's beautiful.

A day without you. And I miss you. We've not been separated for quite some time. I can hardly imagine the days when you're not with me. I wouldn't let it happen anymore. I want you. And I need you.

Title.

Have to admit that I'm not an active blogger. No idea, I have nothing to talk about.

Sometimes, I can't really differentiate the right and wrong. And I feel sick bout it. How I wish I could be a bystander of my life. Observe every deed and thought of mine. We are not clear bout certain situation when we're into it, don't we?

Hmmmmm. Feel like I'm wasting so much time. But I just don't have the energy, the passion to do what I suppose to do. I feel down and blue, for no reason.

Ahhh I viewed the city from a tall building. The busy roads with the busy vehicles and those busy man who busy with their busy stuffs. I'm so sick of these. I just want some peace.

This ain't an emotional post.

Crowded.

Went for shooting today and it was fun! :D so glad that we have a make up artist and a hair stylist and a photographer in this family. ;)
Had a lot of fun.

My house's crowded these days. And it's so warm.
Hope that we will always be together. :) ♥

Youaretheonlyone. ♥

I'm so glad to have you in my life.

You're my strength when I was weak.
You're my voice when I couldn't speak.
You're my eyes when I couldn't see.

I remembered there's a story..

Once a professor asked his student, why do people shout at each other in anger? Why do people shout even the person is just next to you? It's possible to talk softly isn't it?
The student gave various answers, none of them satisfied the professor.

Finally he explained, when two people are angry with each other, their hearts distance. To cover the distance between them, they have to shout to each other. The angrier they are, the louder they have to shout to each other through that great distance.
Then the student asked, What happens when two people fall in love?

They don't shout but talk softly, because their hearts are very close to each other. When they love each other even more, what happens?
They do not speak, they only whisper. And they get closer to each other in their love.

Finally, they do not have to whisper. They just have to look at each other, that's all. That's how close two people are when they love each other. ♥







I love you :) ♥

Anxiety.

I'm anxious. 9 hours to go for the calculus make up test. I really hope I can do well. Couldn't deny that I'm weak in maths.
Besides, there's also the reports. Should've done by today but I was focusing on calculus ONLY.
Oh gosh everything please goes fine tomorrow :/

If I have wings, I will fly up high.
View the countries, cities from above.
Borderless and free.

Awww. ♥

Hmmm.

I don't really feel good right now. Exhausted. Just don't feel like moving and hope that everything is done after I open my eyes. I know that's impossible so I'm just hoping.

This is so peaceful.
Unfortunately, I've came back to this busy town and start off my busy life. I've no choice cause this is part of life. Just trying to steal some times to rest. Far away from the crowd. That's all I need.





Get up!

It ends.

The holiday ends. And it was.. substantial. I've spent every single day fully. Sorry for those who I've supposed to meet - sorry.

I watched a lot. And I'm drowning in it - Prison break. I know it's pretty late to start watching now, but it doesn't really matter :D I have to say that, it's very awesome ♥

New semester is going to start. New life again. It will be a short one, so glad. I hope everything will go smooth in this new start. God bless me.

Don't judge a book by it's cover. Something that you used to care about, and now you thought you still care of it, actually when it really happens to be there, you will realize it doesn't really carry weight in your life anymore. You feel me? There's always something more important.




Goodnight. ♥

Relationship.

I believe that it's a complicated issue that everyone's facing in their daily life. Too many people around us. Too many relationship. We can't take every single one of them as the same, because they are not the same.

As life goes on, we met a lot of people. Some of them had left memorable footsteps, and some of them we don't really remember, but you know they were once there.

Family is the only one that will never leave you, forever. They will always there for you whenever you need them. Just like a special bond that held all of us together. Never break apart.

Friendship is another thingy that make me feel so warm. Sometimes, it needs no word. When they are around you, you feel safe. That's what a friend makes you feel. Even though they are not around, you'll still hoping to see their sweet faces again. :)

Never neglect the important one. Yea, it's you. We have been together for quite a long period and we have went through ups and downs. I know that there are many more to come and we are ready for it, right? ♥


We always heard that boys and girls will not have a pure friendship. I wonder why. It's pretty true though. Seriously I don't really like the feeling of being a stranger with the one you know. But sometime we are forced to. And we know we need to do so.







I miss you :) ♥

The week.

What a dramatic week I had. It's the week for final exam. After I have returned to the normal college life from the restful hometown-life, I got into a seriously suffering situation. Flu, fever, sorethroat, cough, headache and whatever illness you can think of, strike on me. Oh gosh this is the final week man !

As a result, i skipped my ENL 101 and Cal 1 papers. This is the thing that really out of my expectation, and i feel stress of it. I SKIPPED MY FINAL EXAM. What a big deal for me. I couldn't even hold a pen as usual and how can I sit for my finals in this sucks situation?! Luckily luckily luckily, there's make-up test for me ! Oh thank god. But the make up test probably will be harder than the usual one. It's okay for me i think. As long as i have enough time to prepare in a GOOD CONDITION.

Am still suffering from cough, sorethroat and stuffs. The antibiotic and pills really irritate me, as swallowing a pill is quite a big deal for me -_- How i wish the doctor could give me the fluid type of medicine, but sorry, THAT's for CHILDREN. Too bad.

Next monday will be the last paper * exclude the make-up test*
There's two weeks of holiday for me. But still, i have to spent some time on my studies. That's not really a bad thing for me. At least i can do something meaningful during the holiday.
Should have a proper schedule.





Hope to catch a movie later. Hmmm let's see.

A sick night.

It is a sick night. I can't fall asleep, am facing insomnia. There are so many thoughts feelings and stuffs running through my mind and I can't get a clear picture of it. Reminds me a lot.

I am very clear about what I need and what I want. But there's still something that bothered me. And I can't figure it out.

Yea I admit that I did something wrong in the past so I'm trying very hard to stop repeating it. My mind is disturbed by an unknown thought.
AHHHHH :(

I have not been so sentimental after the critical period. I know it's time to sleep. Stop to be so emotional and sentimental.
Goodnight :/




Everything will be fine.

Kuantan ( 3, 4, 5 )

 Kuantan oh Kuantan, i have nothing much to say. I just love the life right here. :)

                                                              Favorite CURRY MEE :D

                                                                   Sagu dessert :P

 

                                                                 Pandan nasi lemak !

                                                                   Sushi day ! :)

                                                                Hunting for food huh? ;)

   Let me show you the lovely choppa :D

          Tell you what. Kuantan has a really nice beach :)

 

                                                           And lastly, the happy family :P

Kuantan ( 2 )

Woke up at 630 in the morning and fetch my sis to school. And then I went to eat CURRY MEE ! :D Woooo I can find no word to describe it. >.<

Opps actually I planned to go for jogging in the early morning but my stomach was persuading me to go for the curry mee :x So the plan failed.

Spent my afternoon time with my family and the love one. So sad when I saw Jezz cafe didn't open today :( Awww my butter milk chicken rice :/ I'll get it someday !

Hmmm I have not start any of my study yet. It gonna be a prOblem. Shouldn't waste so much time. Haiz :( But nvm I'll start off soon. I hope it will not be too late.




I can see our future so brightly. Just in front of us. We'll fight for it.
I love you ♥

Kuantan ( 1 )

Had spent a lovely first day in Kuantan. Woke up at 1130 in the morning and after that went to a birthday party at tc McD :p
Awwwwww the beach. I miss you so much ! ♥ The sky looks so pretty here I don't know why. Just fall in love in this little town ♥

Went to a movie with him and my sis. Rio for the second time :D and I brought the little choppa to the pet shop for a bath ! She looks so cute with two little ribbon on her head :D

The 'homemade' dinner is the thing I always wish to eat while I'm apart. I wish my mum will always be with me and cook every meal for me :/ Haiz.

Hang out with ah jen Looi Yee and ah wen tonight :) I have not seen them for a really long time ! There's less pol around. No Melanie pong Yonglin Goh Daniel cheng and so on. When will we be able to gather and chit chat like we used to be :(



Ohhhhh there are more to come :)

Home.

Feel like I'm dreaming. A dream that I always wish to happen.
There's a lot of familiar sound around.
There's laughter and joy.
There's secure and warmth.
There's not a house but a home.

Yea, i'm home. A home that I have left for a long time.

I have one week time here and of course, there's a lot of plans waiting for me :D There's a lot of foods are waiting for me. Woohoo :P
The food the beach the gang the school the bed the washroom the everything. I miss everything here ! Oh here I come ;)




Plan !

An extraordinary child.

My name is Choppa.
I have a very happy and warm family. There's daddy, mommy, a elder sister with her boyfriend and a friend, AND a younger sister which doesn't live with me currently. Of course, I still have a grandpa and grandma :D

I'm really lucky enough to live in such a big family. Everyone in this family loves me so much. They, especially my daddy and mommy treat me like the most precious child in this world. They feed me with foods that contain a lot of vitamins, but sometime they like to treat me with junk food too ! oh gosh, the French fries of McD is my favourite! Although it's quite unhealthy :x 

Oh tell you what. Everyday, I sleep with my parents on the huge bed! The bed is the most comfortable place I have ever slept, with the thick blanket and cool atmosphere. Awwww ♥. My dad always complain about me because I always snore while I'm sleeping. No point, it's too comfortable ! :D 

My mum and dad are very busy. They have to go to work and school so I have to leave alone at home for every single day except Sunday! I have waited them to come back everyday, looking at the window. Hoping to listen the familiar sound.

But they always spend time to accompany me and bring me out for a walk :) I'm really excited whenever my parents holding my clothes and shoes, that's mean I have the chance to go out and play ! :P Life will not be so boring then. They also bring me to travel often. I have went quite a lot of places before ;) This week, I'm going to travel back Kuantan :D

I don't know why I have no interest about the toy or ball or anything looks fun. The only thing I'm interested in is my dad's fingers ! He always spend time playing around with me with only his fingers. And I find it fun chasing around with him and always try to dig a hole and hide. What a lovely daddy ♥
But sometime, he is quite fierce. My heart beats really fast whenever he speaks a little bit louder than usual. I know I'm naughty sometime. But I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do that. My life is really boring with you all by my side :/

Hmmm, my mom is caring. She feeds me everyday as my dad always forget to do so. I love to be with her and so I follow her everywhere she goes in the house. In the toilet, in the kitchen, in the room, everywhere. She always find chances to let me out of the house by begging my dad. Hooray ! :P 

My parents are very funny. They always fight because of me. They can fight when choosing which shampoo suits me, choosing my foods, choosing my clothes or even fight of my hairstyle. :S 

I feel like i'm a little queen in this family. I get everything I want and what they gave me is always the best. I can always lie down with whatever pattern I want.

                                                                   Like this,

OR

Like this.

I just stop here by now. Will try to upload some posts and pictures in the future. TEEHeE ! 














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